Broken Bodies

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I found this picture on a friend’s social media page and with her permission I am using it to illustrate my thoughts.

Hopefully by now you have recovered from the poses and absence of certain body parts.

Since pictures speak a thousand words, this blog is going to be shorter than most.

At first when I saw the picture, I had a flood of emotions and then several writer’s thoughts too – not all good but I knew right away I needed to take a deep dive!!

Missing or broken limbs, missing bodies, so much detachment.  Dear friends, based on many conversations I have been having as of late, this is how our churches are beginning to look.

People are missing, some have detached themselves or parts of themselves because they don’t feel like they fit or belong, some have simply moved on to other churches, or simply drifted away all together.

Is that you?

Do you know someone?

Well then, what are you doing about it?

Aren’t we, as believers, called to “keep the body together”?

What will it take?

For those dolls some good tape, glue or some other strong adhesive will be required.

Within the “Body”, we have forgiveness, reconciliation, acceptance, patience, and the love of Christ as adhesive for fellow believers…in Jesus’ Name!!!

A few suggestions to help you on your journey: (assuming you have some proximal relationship with the person).

DON’T SAY: “you look good, must be everything is going well!”

INSTEAD SAY: “I’ve missed seeing you, how have you been?”

 

DON’T SAY: (when you do see them in church) “I see you haven’t been in church for some time.”

SAY: (via text, call, email, social media…) “I haven’t seen you at church in a while, would you like to talk?”

 

DON’T SAY: “I was giving you your space.”

SAY: “I would like to come over and sit with you as you work through your situation.” (or something that sounds like you are stepping into their mess with them).

 

Let’s do our part to fix The Body.   Who’s ready to do their part?!?!

 

Thank you for joining me on my journey.

Kinita

Driving in Unity

These past eight months have been so full of travel and interestingly enough, most of them involved a lot of driving on busy highways and roads.

I often find myself alone in my passion for multi-lane highways that wrap around concrete jungles.  And the more I stay true to this unique passion; I find more of my true authentic self.

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So why do I like them? You ask.

It’s simple really. Everyone is headed in the same direction.

The vehicles are all unique, various makes and models, but they are travelling in the same direction.  Notice I didn’t say destination? From time-to-time, vehicles make take their exits but then others join us as they merge from one of many on-ramps, joining the masses, all of us on our merry way…in the same direction.

That my friends, is called UNITY- “The state of being united or joined as a whole”.

We are united by going in the same direction and yet staying uniquely individual, traveling in our own make and model.

The Problem?  I find that as we travel on a highway in a united fashion, some travelers become weary and impatient and they begin to grumble.  They don’t like the “PACE”.  Perhaps they don’t like the masses and would prefer a country road that would take them to the same destination faster, without all the extra traffic.  Some get annoyed when someone else wants to join the journey and merge into the mass of travelers.  They don’t like to create “SPACE”.  Perhaps they don’t like the fact that each vehicle is unique, and the comparison of “who has the better vehicle” gets under their skin.  They like to “COMPARE”.   

I remember on one recent road trip as I was merging onto the highway, I almost got clipped by the truck that was in the lane I was trying to merge into.  The driver didn’t have room to move over to make room for me so I needed to let them pass before I could merge safely, at which point I realized I was holding my breath out of fear the whole time!!

Whatever the case, everyone is forced to go forward in UNITY (road rules).  But are they really experiencing UNITY if all they want to do is get to their destination and “get rid of / ignore” those who aren’t like them, or choose to take a different highway to decrease the number of others on the road so they can simply get to where they are going faster?  And are they really driving forward in UNITY if they demand that “it is their way or the highway”? (Pun intended).

Then it happened…

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This visual got me thinking of the Church (shocker).  There are so many people who say they want UNITY.  Although, they may be genuine, don’t seem to know how to live it out.  There are some who want it, but only for the sake of their public image (aka: being a ‘good’ Christian).  There are some who want UNITY because they have embraced it as heart of Christ’s ministry to His people.  And there are some who could care less, and they do.

I don’t know who you are or how you define unity, but as Believers, we are all headed in the same direction…all on a journey of following Jesus and ultimately headed for a destination called heaven.  God made a way for us by sending His Son, Jesus ahead of us to the Cross on our behalf.  That secures our identity and our destination of Heaven.  He is the Way, the Truth, and the life.  No one can get to the Father but through Him.  Do you believe that?  Then you are on a journey of living the abundant life and on your way to Heaven.  It doesn’t matter how long or short you have been on your journey. The question is, do you believe in Jesus?

I think what seems to be trapping so many people within our church communities is in-fighting and as a result, they take their own version of “road rage” to their social media sites.  If that describes you, I encourage you to consider how you are representing Jesus in the spaces and places you go.  This is not an argument to support or deny what Jesus says or does. It’s simply a reminder that there are some who are meant to be on this “highway” and are waiting on the on-ramp.  They want to find a place of hope and rescue and to travel a better road, not the road where they experience what the world is giving them.

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I’m not saying, “go to church (the Building) and you will find Jesus”.  What I am saying is that “we as the Church” (who we are) need to do a better job of making room for those who desire to join us on the journey and to help them experience more unity as we travel this road together.  Whether you are on a highway, a bi-way, a country road or trail and have a relationship with Jesus, then you have the responsibility to share that with others and encourage them to join you from the on-ramp and not discourage them to get out of the way or to take an exit.

What a privilege, to leave our church buildings, to spend the rest of our week building relationships with those who are not yet on the highway, who feel they are on the outside and give them the gift of inclusion.

On this road trip of life, I have discovered that the destroyers of unity are PACE, SPACE, and COMPARISON.  We have all been guilty of those from time to time.

Let’s make today different…

Check your pace, make space, and don’t compare…Live your story!!

 

Reflection:

What does God’s word say about the direction you are going in?

Is He asking you to consider a “rest stop” so you can take a spiritual inventory of some kind?

Is He asking you to move over and make room for another on your journey?

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey.

Kinita

I have arrived…

If you are offended by the title, please read on.  I am not someone who lives with the attitude of “I have arrived”, “I’ve got this”, “I’ve got it together” …or anything else that sounds like that.  However, I have arrived into a new season, a new decade, a new era.  The old is gone and the new is coming…

This spring and summer, my husband and I watched our third son graduate from high-school in June with plans to move out of state (deeming us empty-nesters). We also celebrated the marriage of our middle son to a beautiful young lady in July.  Just this week, I completed half a century of life.  And since not one more minute or experience is guaranteed in my life, I thought I would do a post about the lessons I have learned.

“No Longer Slaves” by Bethel, is a very personal song for me and it unravels me with a melody that always reminds me that from my mother’s womb, God has CHOSEN me.  From deliverance to the drowning of fears and to accepting His Perfect love for me, I am no longer a slave to anything (at least that I which I am aware of).  But I am a child of God.

So yes, I made a list of 50 things that I have learned in the past 5 decades…most of them in the past 25 years…thanks to moving to the USA from Canada, marriage, parenting, running a salon, leading ministries and starting my own consulting business, just to name a few.  Hope it encourages you!

Here’s to 5 decades behind me, the present with all its joys and challenges, and to whatever God has in store for me going forward.  #ISurrenderAll.

So, without further adieu, here’s my list.  Not in any specific order, just how they came to me. I would love to hear how they impact your story.

  1. Keep my eyes on Jesus not on people.
  2. Be true to myself.
  3. Live my story.
  4. Be authentic…even when I am rejected.
  5. Obeying God is the key to my success.
  6. Love well so I can live well.
  7. Be honest to myself and to others.
  8. Learning “I can’t care more than you do” about someone else’s situation.
  9. Be consistent.
  10. Live a life of integrity.
  11. It’s ok to not like pink or pets.
  12. People will always disappoint, God will not.
  13. Never drink coffee when wearing white jeans.
  14. When things go WRONG always make sure I am RIGHT with God.
  15. Ask God what He wants to do in my life not just what I want Him to do.
  16. Consider others better than myself.
  17. Learn my own pace.
  18. Let God’s Word be my pace car in my life.
  19. Surrender only on days that end in “y”.
  20. Listen to and obey the promptings of the Holy Spirit.
  21. Emotional health and spiritual maturity go together.
  22. Keep confidences.
  23. Relish the moments where I get a front-row seat to God’s work in someone’s life.
  24. Speak truth.
  25. Don’t let people “should” on me.
  26. Stay true to my convictions.
  27. Don’t try to keep up with others.
  28. Focus on God’s calling on my life.
  29. Embrace negative emotions / feelings and then surrender them to God for His purposes.
  30. Acknowledge God’s authority in all I do.
  31. Take “mental trips” down memory lane.
  32. Don’t fight the growth process.
  33. Let God be God.
  34. Unity results in exponential growth.
  35. Understand your own expectations.
  36. Most of life’s decisions are in wet cement.
  37. Who I am is more important than what I do.
  38. Hold all things loosely.
  39. Taking risks will reveal strengths and weaknesses.
  40. Learn to live into MY strengths not the ones people think I have.
  41. Stand firm in the knowledge that God loves me…NO MATTER WHAT.
  42. Surround myself with genuine and authentic people.
  43. Mind my own boundaries.
  44. Make sure to always have margin in my life.
  45. Learn to have fun.
  46. Always trust God with the story of another person.
  47. Take more RISKS so I have less REGRETS.
  48. Cry because it is good for my soul not their expectation.
  49. Become a shame lifter and grace giver.
  50. Own my brokenness and pour out God’s healing in me.

 

Here’s to learning more and Growing Forward Together!!

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey.

Kinita

 

When life doesn’t have an easy button…

“It’s so hard, you know?”  I hear this all the time used as an excuse for making bad choices.

Let’s keep this honest. I don’t know what is hard in your story or how hard it is. We all face hard things and I can only live my own story.  Every day I am challenged to choose differently and not use difficult things in my story as an excuse. I often wish I could just push a button and make this situation or that personal relationship easy, or at least easier!

As I get older, what I continue to learn is that sometimes our choices make life harder.  This is because sometimes what we choose is sin. We try to justify our sinful choices with the excuse that making good choices is somehow beyond our reach.

We go left when asked to go right.  #disobedience

We eat junk when our body says, “eat healthier”.  #rebellion

We stay when we are asked to go.  #NotJustJonahAndTheWhale

We spend more time talking about what we want to do rather than doing it.  #procrastinating

Nike had a slogan of “Just Do It” that made them billions of dollars. They chose well, but choosing well is easier said than done, eh?

Not if you have the right tools.

Spiritual Tools:

Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength”.

Matthew 6:33, “Seek first the Kingdom of God and all these other things will be added to it.”

1 Timothy 7-10, “Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives’ tales; rather, train yourself to be godly.  For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promises for both the present life and the life to come.  This is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance.  That is why we labour and strive, because we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Saviour of all people, and especially of those who believe.”

Could God’s Word be our “easy button” for choices that lead to strength, peace, patience, endurance, perseverance…whatever you need to make your load lighter?

Physical Fitness Tool:

Finding the right fitness plan for you and your body.  For me, I have learned that I need people with me when I exercise to help me stay consistent.  Not just a gym full of fellow strugglers but one or two people who will come alongside and exercise with me but also push me to get better.  Sadly, I have yet to find such companions.

Emotional Mental Tool:

A trusted friend is great but sometimes we need more than that to carry the heavy stuff up and away from our path.  A counselor, Life Coach or Spiritual Director that will give you a different perspective to help lighten your load.

The Gospel:

The sacrifice Jesus made on the cross for you and for me. I am guessing that having nails pierced through hands and feet and donning a crown of thorns for the sake of another…IS HARD.  Every hard thing I have ever experienced in my life, pales in comparison.

For those of us that claim that “we are hidden with Christ in God” (Colossians 3), this means we are to take up that cross and follow Him…regardless of how hard the situation is.

I don’t recall hearing that Jesus grumbled or complained about how hard it was to take our sin upon Him.  He prayed.  He obeyed.  He did what His Father asked Him to.  He wanted God’s Will.

Having trouble obeying?

You are not alone! However, choosing to obey (with God’s promised help) will give you the freedom and peace you seek and bring clarity of what God’s Will is for you.  The more you grumble and complain, the further you get pulled away from intimacy with God.

Neil Anderson puts it this way. (RE: temptation)

  1. Lust of the flesh draws us away from the Will of God (destroying our dependence on God; John 15:5) When we give into this lust we trust more in our own ways and ideas than we do the Holy Spirit.
  2. Lust of the eyes draws us away from God’s Word (destroying our confidence in God; John 15:7) We allow the world, the flesh, and the devil to fill us with their thoughts and words instead of God’s truth.
  3. Pride of life draws us away from Worship of God (destroying our obedience to God; John 15:8-10) We embrace our idols rather than find comfort in the presence of God.

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Do you want to obey God? Are you struggling with knowing His Will, with being in and understanding His Word, or do you lack Worship? Maybe it is lust and pride that is distracting you.

REFLECTION:

Question is… “what are you willing to do about it?”

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey.

Kinita

Who wants an upgrade?

I never buy myself things when out shopping for Christmas presents.  But this past Christmas something small but significant happened.

We bought a lotion set for someone and the store was running a special deal of “buy 3 get 2 free”.  Although that was more than we needed, I trusted that God would let me know who we were to gift the extra ones to.  He was faithful in giving me two names of people I normally wouldn’t buy gifts for, but I was happy to bless. But there was still one lotion left.

I pondered some more and then my husband said, “why don’t you keep it”.  I reasoned that I couldn’t possibly keep it because keeping it went against my personal policy of “not buying anything for myself at Christmas”.  He then reminded me that I had put lotion on the grocery list and perhaps this was just an “upgrade”.  He did have a point.  BUT was I okay with an upgrade?  Did I deserve it?  There must be someone who needs it more than I do.  These were just some of the questions running through my mind as we paid for the items and left the store.

So, I kept the lotion for myself and felt compelled to look for a greater purpose.  That’s when the Holy Spirit nudged me to ponder the thousands of wishes I have had over the years.  Many of them never came to be and many I have forgotten about.  For a season of my life I carried a lot of regrets in my heart.  I came to understand that some of those were simply wishes and not desires God wanted for me.

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Wishes. Desires.  Dreams.  Fleeting as some of them may be, we all have them.  But maybe God wants to give us a reminder of something better.  An upgrade, perhaps?

At the change of a calendar year I take the “woulda, shoulda, couldas” of the year and lay them at the cross…again…for the last time. Lol!!  I can’t go back and change time, I can only grow forward with what I have learned and try to do a little better.

I wrote the first draft of this post in the last few days of 2018 and now it is officially 2019.  It needed an upgrade, aka editing and now I am ready for an upgrade too – an upgrade of my attitude, my approach to life and situations that it holds, my thought life, my choices the first time and the reminder to keep simplifying and downsizing so there is an upgrade in my faith.

I continue to practice trusting God for the desires of my heart and for His timing.

There isn’t much I deserve in this life.  I believe that “while I was yet a sinner, Christ demonstrated his love for me.” I am not my own.  I have been bought with a price.  It wasn’t a “special” that was running during a particular season.  Christ paid the price with His life ONCE, so I could have mine ETERNALLY forever!  That my friends, is an upgrade no one else can match!!  It truly is a deal of a lifetime. No gimmicks. Just truth…all year round.

Maybe you are entering 2019 with a thousand desires that might be unrealized from years past.  My prayer is that:

  1. You will learn to surrender your desires (if you haven’t already) and embrace ones that reveal God’s greater purpose for you. They might even be one in the same.
  2. That you continue to grow in gratitude for what you do have.

 

May you have a blessed 2019 and enjoy the upgrades God has in store for you this year!!

 

REFLECTION:

What was your favourite gift at Christmas?

What are some wishes, longings, desires that you need to surrender?

Where do you need an upgrade in your story?

Are you carrying regrets from the past? What is God asking you to do with them?

Who in your life needs the gifts God has given you?

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey,

Kinita

Less is More

We are approaching the end of another year.  Time is flying by.  Like many others, I tend to feel very nostalgic and introspective at this time of the year.  Perhaps, because it is the Advent season where we celebrate the arrival of the Christ child, while also practicing His presence each day. Christmas, 2015

Today, as I reflect, I am reminded of a significant word that the LORD gave me at the beginning of this Advent season.  I am not much for focusing on one word, but it looks like this year is different.  What is the word you ask?  Downsizing.

What a strange word to be pondering during Advent.  And yet, not that strange at all.  Advent is a time to prepare our hearts for the arrival of Jesus as a baby in a manger and then to celebrate His birth on Christmas Day.

Plain and simple…right?

Unfortunately, we tend to do the opposite.  We make it complicated.  We fill our houses, calendars, fridges, credit cards, minds, and stomachs with all the treats and trimmings of the season and allow ourselves to indulge, with excuses that end in “Tis the season!”.

I am not trying to be a scrooge.  I like Christmas, just not in the way most people in my life do.

For the past 2 years, I have seen a trend in my heart.  The dislike for what I call, “Christmas clutter.”  Because of some personal circumstances, our family has taken a break from decorations, shopping, gift giving and many other common festivities that happen during this time of the year, here in America.

Sounds dreary and scrooge-like to many of you, I am sure.  But we have found a Joy unspeakable and a Peace that passes all understanding as a result.

Isn’t that the real reason for the season?  Joy and Peace?

I am now being called to downsize to make even more room for Jesus in my story.  Just like when Mary & Joseph arrived in Bethlehem, there was no room at the inn for them.  I don’t want my story to go like that.

The more I get the more I want…of Him.

I asked God where He wanted me to downsize, since His view of my story is better than mine.

He gave me this… “boundaries in pleasant places” (Psalm 16:6), so I could gain clarity about how and where He wants me to downsize.

Physically – house size, clothes, body size, possessions.

We are not changing our address anytime soon (unless God decides otherwise).  I clearly have too many clothes than I know what to do with.  Although we have had garage sales for various reasons over the past few years, I am sensing that God is asking us to sell even more of the items we own.  Perhaps He already knows something we don’t.

Emotionally – deal with all my feelings (good, bad, otherwise), put boundaries in place that guard and protect, remove certain people from my life that cause undue emotional stress (toxic people), implement healthy social media boundaries.

This past year has been full of feelings new and old, shallow, and deep.  God has been faithful in leading and guiding every step of the way.  In some cases, it was easy in this area. But in other ways, it was quite challenging.  I want to continue to pursue emotional health not only because it is a special gift that I give to the people in my life, but it also strengthens my witness.  I learned a phrase last year, “one cannot be spiritually mature while being emotionally unhealthy at the same time.”  This statement has impacted me deeply and helped me downsize effectively.

Mentally – evaluate what I am feeding my brain, determine how I am strengthening my brain to function the way it is supposed to, identify lies I am believing and replace them with the truth.

God’s Word has been the most effective tool that does the above for me.  Just being in the Word isn’t enough, I have to let it do its work in me.

Spiritually – tighten down on my theology, step into the Gospel more intentionally, seek the presence of God in the deepest parts of my story so I have more of Him and less of me, push away teachings and practices that don’t line up with God’s Word.

If I don’t have a good handle on the Gospel, then my life will show it.  In 2015, I survived an earthquake that resulted in a deeper pursuit of Jesus and the determination to live like I want to die.  With integrity and deep resolve.

In a couple of weeks, we will celebrate Jesus’ birth. In the meantime, I will continue to downsize by dying to myself so there is more room for Jesus when He arrives.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your loved ones!!

REFLECTION:

How about you?

Is God calling you do downsize?  If so, where?

How will you respond to His invitation this advent season?

Is there room in your story for Him or will you turn Him away?

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey!

Kinita

Satan is a pimp…

[I wrote this back in May, but haven’t posted since then.  I have been writing pretty faithfully so watch for more posts in the near future.  I started my own business in June called Seema Ministries, LLC.  Checkout our website at http://SeemaMinistries.com and let me know what you think!!]

 

…kick him to the curb.

I have a picture burned in my brain’s photo album and because of the sensitivity of the subject matter, the actual location this picture was taken and the danger it might bring to people I dearly love, I cannot post it.

The picture is of men standing on a balcony of a nearby dingy building with their phones in hand and their eyes fixed on the women prostituting themselves on the street corner below.  They were the pimps, watching their possessions.

(These facts were given to me by the trusted people we were serving with).

Please, stay with me a moment longer.

I took the picture and stood there watching them watch them.  I was overcome with emotions of anger, disgust, a deep sadness, and a sense of “why???”.  These men are made in the image of God, right?  So why the deep feelings of disgust?

It’s the behavior y’all.  They stand around prowling and waiting to steal, kill and destroy the spirit of innocent young girls, young boys, and women.

Sound like anyone you know?  It did to me. Satan.

As I embraced the negative emotions that I was experiencing in that moment, the Holy Spirit revealed that those pimps are no different than the Enemy (Satan) himself.  I also have a deep disgust for him and a sadness of how he tries to infect the lives of those I love and hold dear to my heart.

As we read in John 10:10, “the Enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy…”

Also, in 1 Peter 5:8, “Be alert and of sober mind.  Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour”.

The only difference is that we can’t always physically see the Enemy prowling.  Is God’s Word enough for you to believe he is?

As the Enemy prowls around (like a pimp) looking for someone to devour how are you making yourself available?  How are you guarding yourself?

There are so many little (and big) ways that the Enemy pimps his way into our lives.  It seems the big ways are “easier” to fight off sometimes. A few little ways he might be trying to pimp us with.

  1. He keeps us busy.
  2. He provokes us.
  3. He deceives us.
  4. He feeds our idols.

The list goes on and on.  I would love to hear your thoughts!

2 Timothy 3:16-17, “Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the man (or woman) of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

I am a firm believer that God’s Word fills me with His truth to fight the lies that I believe.  He corrects my thinking, so it doesn’t become “stinking thinking”.

Satan wants to be the pimp of our minds which then affects our behaviours.   Prostitutes have been physically prostituted, but I think Christians are being mentally / emotionally prostituted in many ways.

Where our thoughts linger, so go our behaviours.

Quoting Tim Keller, “sin is a kind of practical atheism – acting as if God were not there”.

Since God’s Word is teaching us that the Enemy is going to do it anyway and we can’t change him, then I believe what we need to do (as followers of Christ) is protect ourselves as we remember the second part of John 10:10, “…I have come to give life and give it abundantly!”

  1. Confess your sin. (unconfessed sin opens the door to the Enemy)
  2. Put on your spiritual armor (Ephesians 6)
  3. Get accountability from a truth teller and Jesus lover. (sorry to say, that not all Christians fit this description)
  4. Choose to walk in the freedom that The Gospel of Jesus Christ has afforded you.

Doing these things doesn’t mean the journey will be easy.  It means that you will be able to grow stronger in your faith and understanding of God’s love for you because He is the one that does the protecting as we engage in this way.

Several years ago, one of my dear mentor/friends, Patty, said these words to me during a very challenging season in my life.  “The Enemy plays dirty”.  Through her stories, experience, and wisdom she worked with the Holy Spirit to develop in me the confidence to stand firm in my faith and not sway towards what the world, the flesh and the devil do.  With the help of the Holy Spirit, I have learned to “play nice” and allow Him to pour out His Grace whenever evil is present as He is protecting me.

I have been back from that trip for about a month now and the picture I have burned in my brain continues to sit at the forefront of my memory.  I realize that I am still sad because I can’t really do anything about them.  But God gives me HOPE, and I can do something about the Enemy wanting to pimp you.

I can point you to The Rescue, Jesus Christ.  He Rescued us by pouring out His blood as a ransom for our sin. He paid the price, so we wouldn’t have to.  As a result, we are free.  We aren’t getting the life we deserve (mercy), we are getting this life as a gift (grace)!

Please dear friend, LIVE into that freedom.  LIVE into that Truth.  For your sake, and mine…and theirs.

 

REFLECTION:

Where do you see the Enemy pimping you out?

Are you on standing on the curb too?

What are you willing to do about it?

 

Thank you for joining me on the journey,

Kinita

Do you see what I see?

From my heart:  It’s been awhile since I last wrote.  Life has been very full and very complicated and I haven’t been able to blog the way I have wanted.  I decided I wanted to finish out the year better than it started. I have many pieces waiting in the wings.  I hope you will continue on this journey with me and that you will receive peace and insight for yours. 

I love to write and share what God has put on my heart and I THANK YOU for joining me!!!! 

“I’m looking at the man in mirror, I’m asking him to change his ways…”

You might recognize those lyrics if you, like me, are a child of the 80’s.  “Man in the Mirror” was one of Michael Jackson’s most critically acclaimed songs released in 1988 and nominated for “record of the year” at the Grammy awards.  Many radio stations continue to play it today, nostalgically taking me back in time.

A song I turn up in the car and sing along to my hearts delight.

Truth be told, I was a huge Michael fan growing up and even remember seeing him in concert when I turned 13.  Sadly, his life ended at the age of 50 leaving behind a legacy of music, fashion and talent that no other artist has ever measured up to.  He was aptly named “the king of Pop” for those reasons.

In the past several months, the lyrics of this song have taken me into deeper intimacy with Jesus causing me to have a lump in my throat and tears to follow.

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Here’s why.  I have been asking God to change His ways.  I have had more requests for Him than affirmation, praise and gratitude for Him amidst the many storms surrounding me and many others in this country.  I sat with these lyrics and God showed me something different.  He changed the lyric for me to read, “I’m looking at the man in the mirror and He’s asking me to change my ways”.  Who is this man you ask?  Please read on.

I look in the mirror and see a woman.  A woman of strong convictions that aren’t always received by those around her.  A woman with scars, blemishes and character qualities that aren’t always welcomed, accepted or admired. That’s ok, because God isn’t finished with me yet.  More importantly, He loves me just the way I am.  I don’t spend a lot of time looking in the mirror.  But the glimpses I get I haven’t liked because the messages of rejection seem to be louder.  I confess, surrender and ask God to show me what He wants me to see.  To show me how He has created me and what He wants me to do with it all.

That’s when it happens….

Amidst the pain and struggle in my journey, I see the Man in the mirror.  It is Jesus.  The King of kings.  I see the tenderness of His eyes and He is smiling and delighting in me.  He tells me I’m beautiful and reminds me of His healing in my life.  He shows me His scars, on his hands and feet as He reminds me that I have been crucified with Him, therefore I no longer live but He lives in me (Galatians 2:20).  He reminds me that I have a Companion and Comforter in the Holy Spirit especially for all those times I feel alone.  I feel the Holy Spirit’s presence while I look at this Man in the mirror and He has become my Advocate.  He points me to the things I need to think on as He has written them in Philippians 4:8, “whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and whatever is admirable.  If anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things.” 

Do you see what I see?

This Man in the mirror is asking me to change my ways.  Not because He doesn’t love me just the way I am but because they aren’t ways that reflect Him.  He loves me more than I will ever know yet for today I receive that correction and walk in the way He wants me to.  I tell Him it is hard to change some of those ways in my own strength and He assures me that when I am weak, He is strong (2 Corinthians 12:10).  I need to surrender to Him and He will do the changing.

I am learning to sing out those verses to my heart’s delight as I grow forward (and older) on this journey to find Jesus in the small moments of life.

A song written the year I graduated from high-school has become a landmark in my heart for the woman I am and the woman I am becoming as God grows me to hopefully reflect Him more and more each day.

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 REFLECTION:

What do you see?

Who do you see?

Is God asking you to change your ways? How will you answer Him?

Is God asking something of you that you feel is impossible to do / change?

 

 

 

“Be the change you want to see in the world” –Mahatma Ghandi

Thank you for taking this journey with me,

Kinita