Hindsight is 2019

A new day, a new month, a new year, and a new decade are in full swing and in my hindsight is 2019.

You’ve heard the phrase, “hindsight is 20/20”, right?  Well, if not, it’s a thing.  It means having perfect vision after we have gone through something.  Because I love puns (double meanings), I was inspired to use this as a theme for this blog.  Let’s see where it goes! (see what I did there?)

In my hindsight I have 20/19 (yes, a pun, again!)

I dreamed small.

I struggled a lot when maybe in some areas I didn’t need to.

I lost much and gained even more.

I made mistakes only to be challenged to see them as choices.

I met some amazing people who weren’t celebrities or known by the world, but they are passionate about what they do and who they are and are working hard to make a difference in their “worlds”.

I became a mother-in-love and an empty-nester within weeks.

I learned to love deeper and harder.

I discovered physical loneliness while experiencing deep intimacy and companionship with God.

I craved authenticity (this one continues) and realized it in deeper parts of myself.

I fell short…not once but I had 365 days-worth of opportunities to fall short…and I apparently took many of them, sometimes knowingly!  Hindsight is 2019.

You know what?

We all fall short.

There is no-one perfect person, method, arrangement, situation, thing, or place.  We might have feelings of euphoria that make us say “this or that is just perfect” …but those are just emotions…highly unreliable.

Are you with me?

You know what else?

When I fell short, and I knew what to do, I did it.  Not every time, but I needed to practice.  So now in 2020, I (hopefully) won’t fall short in the same areas!!

When I fell short and didn’t know what to do.  I cried, I frequently wrote in my journal, I prayed, I surrendered, I vented to trusted friends…and most importantly, I picked myself up and kept going.  I couldn’t let my imperfections keep me down (carrying that into 2020 as well!!)

I heard this quote years ago, “It doesn’t matter how many times you fall; it just matters that you get up!!”

So, if you feel like you have fallen a long way down in your story, no worries, there’s hope.  It is a new year and you can choose differently!!

Here’s the good news…at the end of this year, we will all have 2020 in our hindsight!!

“You can’t go back and change the beginning,

but you can start where you are

and change the ending.”~C.S.Lewis

What will you set your sights on?REFLECTION:

What do you see in your hindsight?

What will your vision be for this year?

Will you focus on years past and the lessons you learned from those years?

How does your hindsight impact your present?

 

Thank you for joining me on this journey,  Happy New Year to you all!!

Kinita